It's called 'Starting Over'. Something I've done a lot of over and over again through out my entire life.
It's been a long time since I've added anything to this blog. Almost five years, to be exact. Guess it's time to get up, dust off my ass, and start writing again.
So, where do I start? So many things have happened over the past five years. Too many things to list at this moment but I'm sure they will all come up in future posts.
Right now, I want to hit on something that has been on my mind a lot lately...
JOB HUNTING
I've been on that wild ride for almost a year now and it's not fun.
I miss the old days when you actually walked inside a business, filled out an application, and met someone face-to-face. I've been job hunting for almost a year now and I feel like I'm not closer to finding something as I was 10 months ago. I'm starting to think it's impossible to find something after having been unemployed for so long. No one wants an older woman who has spent most of her corporate years doing temp work. Add the years of being a caregiver and that makes it even harder. Skipping the face-to-face aspect is unfair to those of use who are hard workers with a good personality and a professional attitude. So, I drudge on. Keeping my fingers crossed.
I understand the feeling that comes with not being able to find a job. I have been out of work for years, and it makes me feel terrible. The search went fine for a little while; I had two or three interviews, but unfortunately, neither restaurants hired me. One claimed that I was "too quiet" to be a hostess. The guy kept harassing me about speaking up louder and louder and at one point, I had told him that I felt like I was already screaming. It hurt a lot because the guy does not understand what it is like to have a hearing impairment and unable to tell how loud or soft-spoken I am. After a while, I began to suspect that not only was my hearing impairment getting in the way but a former manager was making it even harder. Everyone kept saying "we're hiring" but in reality, they were looking for specific people and I rarely ever got a call back for an interview. It's depressing. I gave up because I feel like I am not good enough for anyone to bother giving a chance. What makes it worse is that I feel like I am a burden for Ben and I don't want to drag him down because I cannot seem to find a job.
ReplyDeleteHopefully, you'll find a job that will be very glad to bring you on board. Good luck!
Mandy, thank you for your kinds words and for sharing this with me. You are never a burden to Ben or anyone else. He loves you so much.
DeleteYou are amazing <3
I believe in you! Someone will finally be smart enough to realize your talents and hire you.
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